But as time passes i wonder if it will be okay. if im moving in the right direction if any of this is even worth it all. where do i stand in all this, will i be someone or just end up another ant in the machine, the world that exists right now is so bland and dry, creative minds dying out and money taking over its makes me sad... wondering when life will be worth living. wondering if times will get better and people will see the truth of the world, how free we could all trully be if we all came together. idk.. just always so lost in thought alwsays thinking of a way out of this restrictive box. just always seems imposible..
Trying to except the way the world is right now is just so hard. everything feels so wrong everyone seems so greedy, constantly needing money. created somthing just to lose yourself in it, i cant understand it. the worlds systems have been made so backwords worrying about currencys we created rather then bettering the people alive today. just leaves me so drained and sapped for modivation.
the world feels so washed out, so hopless like everyone forgot themselves like they forgot whats important what lights the fire in there souls. Where did it go? why is no one helping? this world is crumbling aside my mind as i watch as it all gets pulled away from us all. who will stop this? can i not do enough as just one person? i just feel helpless.
I dont know, just feels like im losing it and starting to give up, like im not going to make it to the dreams i see. just feel like im watching the world out a window, like my lifes is just passing me by. just trying to find meaning in life and myself can be such a draining thing to reach let alone finding the modivation for it all. just drained of life, of myself..
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